My ability to write has completely left me. Between the boundaries that I've had to put on what I can write here, and important real life events that are taking all of my energy (which, naturally, I can't write about), there's not a lot left to say.
I read Karl and Hiromi and Miss Snark and DailyKOS obsessively. I check all my New Orleans links every day. But I'm not in New Orleans, and right now I feel like a fraud writing about it when there are people there actually living in it who have much more to say than I do. I have nothing to say about Austin, so I've kind of wandered away from Austin Metblogs. I don't think they're happy with me. I still read it, though, which is more than I can say about The Austinist.
I wouldn't be posting anything at all today, except that Clint Hagen tagged me with this meme. I like his blog. Even though I don't consider myself a Christian so much as a guy raised as a Christian who still believes there is a God, I enjoy reading the sermons he posts.
Anyway, memage follows (slightly modified). Apologies to those of you who think blog memes are trivial and stupid and not something that real bloggers do. Bite me. I'm tired, and it beats silence:
I AM: stressed out over the important choices I have to make, some of which are life-and-death.
I SAID: I wanna watch cartoons!
I WANT: all my loved ones to be healthy and safe from harm.
I WISH: I was nine years old again, eating an orange sno-ball, without anything to worry about except maybe schoolwork, which is easy.
I HATE: Republicans. Yes, even you.
I MISS: New Orleans as it existed in 1982.
I FEAR: death.
I HEAR: my son playing Runescape.
I WONDER: if I am doing the right thing, or if I am just being selfish.
I REGRET: not being able to talk to anybody about what I regret.
I AM NOT: as cool as you think I am.
I DANCE: in public if it will embarrass my daughter.
I SING: in the car. I sing along with Davell Crawford's "Gather By The River" at the top of my lungs when I'm sad. I sing along with the Polyphonic Spree when I'm less sad.
I CRY: once every couple of years, for about a minute, and then I squash it again.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: err....fuck, I got nothing for this one.
I MADE: a ton of pretend money in the Internet bubble. Then I lost it all again.
I WRITE: eh. I don't. Not lately.
I CONFUSE: eh. Not even going to touch this one.
I NEED: more hugs. And more money. And more free time.
I SHOULD: take a shower. I'm taking my son and my dad to brunch at Threadgill's in a little while and it's nice to be clean.
I START: lots of things that I don't finish. Remember guitar lessons?
I FINISH: the ice cream. Seriously, don't leave ice cream in my freezer and expect it to be there in the morning.
I TAG: Karl, Hiromi, Maitri, Whirly, Darkneuro.